I am not a poet and don’t know what poet do
Do they write poems or play a sonnet
Neither which I understand or learn
I will just pick my pen to write the bundles
Of the inspiration and emotions I feel now
Emotion?’ I don’t think I feel any
I don’t have beautiful words to convey
Maybe the beautiful words are not yet born
Stiftled by dark unbiblical cord
Blank stares, empty mind, bizarre thoughts
How I do come being like this?
Prayed faith filled the night before
Woke up – all empty and faithless,
Who sucked it all up while I slept?
Joy, laughter and hope gone without notice
Another word for bland feelings and I wont agree more
Depression loomed large than the moon
I thought I felt a release from it a while ago
I did all I knew I had learned over the years
Does it mean its all fallacy and junk?
Why did hope hide behind the veil?
Could you please give a glimpse?
Dark thoughts race through by the zillions
Chilling Emotions running riot unabated
I do repent for the umpteenth time
Over what I thought I did or had not done
If only I could find a way through this dark tunnel
Yet this inner turmoil and emptiness kept raging
I do give anything to get out
This miry state is choking and unbearable
How my soul so yearn for release
The void prisoner I had been without reasons
This is real and I faint in handling
I do hide the emptiness I feel
Under the cloak of strength I display
Within I yearn for help with every fibre of my being
I wasn’t suppose to display weakness, be a macho man
Who would believe the strong and cheery one
Has suddenly becomes the frail and grumpy one
Prayer becomes a chore and animated
Expression becomes forced and unwillingly
Future becomes bleak and presents a torture
Help seems oblivion and hope invisible
Who shall deliver me from this state?
Its been two weeks now and it seems like 200 years already
Last time I looked in the mirror, I look older than my age
I guess the emotional and soul turmoil are having a blast
Is this what is termed the trial of faith?
Lord please see me through as I hang by the thin thread
Wriiten by Immanuel (D’Dream)
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